When Lu Qiang left, Jiang Yuyan sat in a bed for long time while thinking about what had just happened. She got out of the bed and went to the gallery to get fresh air and to think about it clearly. She thought, what Lu Qiang was expecting from her was not wrong and it was not something that she didn't want to. She realized, It was always Lu Qiang who initiated the romance between them and she just followed him.
Lu Qiang confessed to her but she was still making him wait for her turn. She never thought about to confess it before she was able to tell him about her past and to tell him what was her problem. She was afraid to make his life difficult because of her past. She was not sure whether she would be able to get out of it ever and live a normal life with Lu Qiang, so she was just buying a time for herself to prepare for it.
