In the face of Marcellus's tender affections, Katrina feels a bit guilty. Marcellus is always so kind to her, pursuing her with unwavering dedication for so many years.
But she secretly got entangled with another man. Despite wanting to draw a clear line with Aaron, he keeps pestering her and refuses to let her go.
Katrina's mind is in a mess.
She can't bring herself to tell Marcellus about her past experiences with Aaron. She can't bear to recall that awful past. More importantly, she is afraid she will see the disappointment in Marcellus's eyes.
Why can't she have a normal love life?
If she hadn't gone to Hadley if she hadn't met Aaron...
She wouldn't be scared to walk hand in hand with Marcellus.
Dating Marcellus is like having a secret love affair that she doesn't dare let Aaron know about. She doesn't know what the consequences would be if he finds out.
For now, she will muddle along and keep things under wraps.
