Darrien
I leave Alanis and I can't help but think about how he felt. I can't help but think about the insecurities he has been feeling. He looks terrible, the pregnancy must be taking a toll on him but that doesn't mean he is not attractive. I know Beau only has eyes for Alanis but he can be blind sometimes. I never want to feel that way with Jabi. Jabi is the most beautiful man I have ever met. He sees me in a way that no one has ever before and I always want us to be this way.
I walk to the cabin and I hear him shuffling around in the room. We are supposed to go back to the apartment tonight but now, I just want to be with him here. I take off my clothes and throw them on the floor of the living room as I walk into the bedroom. He looks up from the bag in front of him and his eyes furrow in confusion.
"Why are you naked?'' he asks me immediately.
