Darrien
"Can I lie next to you?'' I ask him calmly. We are not back to the way we were but suddenly, I don't want that space anymore. The space I thought would be best for us.
I want him in my arms, I want to feel his warmth all around me. All the things that make us, us.
He nods but still remains silent.
Our fight today--if I can even call it that has created a barrier between us. He knows it is there and I know that to and I don't know how we will go back from that but I will try. It is normal to have arguments in relationships, everything cannot be rosy and dandy.
That is all it is.
A stupid fight.
I pull the covers over my body as I lie down on the bed next to him. He hasn't said a word since we left the living room and I don't even know what he is thinking or how he is feeling right now.
I want to pull him closer but it also feels wrong. I need to make amends before we even get to that point.
