Beau
I watch Lanis walk out of the room with his phone pressed to his ear and I can't help but smile at how in awe I am of him.
I reach for Colm and he stops crying the second he catches sight of me. His eyes open wide and that look of confusion and curiosity is back on his face. Sometimes, I feel like whenever they are looking at me, they can feel the love I have for them. Like somehow, we are connected.
As if I could reach into their soul and see the real them; the real Colm and Colin. My babies. The loves of my life. I didn't know I could feel this much for anyone. The love I have for them is different from the one I have for Lanis. I don't even know how I can explain it. There is equality in the love but somehow, it is different too.
Lanis is strong on his own but stronger with me. My babies are not strong on their own. They need me to be their strength and I will give it all to them.
