Katie improved during the next few days, and Sunshine started to spend alot of time with her. She insisted on Sunshine sleeping in her room which we all disagreed, she cried and yelled when she heard of our decision ...I promised her the nanny will bring Sunshine everyday but also stay and keep an eye on them.
She wasn't happy with our decision but we tried to explain to her that for now it was best this way.
Dr Robert also agrees that it will help her in getting better...she seems to be in her best behaviour when Sunshine is with her...the heart of a mother.
With all the confusion, agitation and memory loss she plays with Sunshine and handles her with love and care.
Katie has started physiotherapy treatment, and Dr Robert said she is doing just fine..but still agitated and confused
She is responding more consistently now but gets confused about where she is and what has happened.
Her team of doctors said she will have difficulty with memory and behavior for sometime...her confusion has lead to many yelling, biting and striking out at her care givers but we noticed she doesn't do those things when Sunshine is with her.
I had come home one day and noticed her soft wrist and ankle tied...I was alarmed but the doctor explained that they are used to protect her and prevent tubes from being pulled out...that she has an episode today and it was messy.
I didn't like seeing her like that but Dr Robert further explained that It is very important to remember that this stage is a step toward recovery and this behavior is not intentional.
..I check in on her from time to time but most times when she is asleep...why?
I cannot seem to explain my growing feelings for her, and I don't want to confuse the girl. Anytime I go to see her, I have noticed I stare at her and I think it makes her uncomfortable...so I prefer to see her while she is sleeping.
As I stood by her bed side today, one of her doctors came in ..
Oh it's you Mr Crown I was wondering who was here he said
How was her day today I asked ...
She completed some routine tasks without difficulty, but she still needs help with problem solving, making judgments and decisions.
She doesn't seem to understand her limitations and safety right now which is a big concern...like today she wanted to get off the bed to go to the rest room forgetting she needed her crutches...
I signed...she fell I guess
Yes sir she did ...it took almost two hours to calm her down, your mother even had to intervene, and she called her mum ...
She thinks my mother is her mum I asked surprised...
It's not unusual in cases like this ...she see your mother as a mother figure... and high stress situations make activities more difficult and confusing for her.
She may seem more like the person you knew before. However, there may be personality changes because of the brain injury and memory loss...so we have to be patient with her.
I sat by her bed looking at her ...her progress seems to be slow...I want to meet the woman that she was before all this happened...
Is there nothing that can be done to help her at this stage I asked the doctor
Unfortunately no, and there is no way to predict how long a person will remain in one stage or what the final outcome will be. We are working to achieve the best possible outcome...don't worry Mr Crown...she is improving everyday.
The doctor wished me Good night and left me there ....
I caressed her hand, touching her face ... get better I said to her as I kissed her cheeks. I left her room unhappy...wishing there that was more I can do for her.
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As I was leaving for work the next day I heard laughter from Katie's room, surprised she was up this early I walked into her rooom only to see my mother and Sunshine with her ....
There you are Eric, good morning ...we came to spend some time with Katie she said
Good morning mother I said that's great noticeing Katie was no longer tied and she was happily playing with Sunshine...
Good morning, So that's your first name Mr Crown Katie asked me ..
Yes ...you can call me Eric I told her, Mr Crown is too formal. She smiled sweetly at me and ...that smile ladies and gentlemen shot an arrow into my heart ...Wow what's wrong with me ...am I really getting attracted to a sick woman...she is weak, vulnerable and I am here getting ideas....and feeling
Really Eric, of all the women in this world throwing themselves at you ...I scolded myself. I have to go I said and walked out hurriedly.
Eric my mother called out as I walked out the door ...she followed right behind me
What's wrong with you she asked ...
I am just uncomfortable with Sunshine been so close to her I lied ...she is still unstable I said. Of course I couldn't tell my mother what I was feeling ...
She will not harm her my mother reassured me...and I am there watching them.
She looked at me hard as If sensing there was something else, something I wasn't saying ....what are you ...never mind. Have a great day at home she said turning and entering back into Katie room.
I walked out of the Villa and into my car ...to the military base I said to Kelvin my driver.
I had an appointment with my childhood friend General Billy Hones.
This feelings thing can be very uncomfortable...your thoughts are like a rollercoaster I told myself.