[I never want to see her like that again. Her hands, her face, her whole body. Everything was cold. She was not breathing. Her heart was not beating. It was as if she had already died. I felt such an immense sense of loss I have never experienced before. My chest ached so much but I didn't know what to do. This is the first time I've felt such fear and fury inside me. I don't want to lose her no matter what. I don't want to feel that despair, that helplessness again. I thought I was going to go crazy. If she didn't wake up, I might have lost myself and gone berserk. I'll do everything in my power so she won't be in such a situation again.]
It had been a few minutes since Alwin left and Ferdinand had just been holding her in his arms. He hasn't said a single word and just hugged her, feeling her warmth and listening to her heartbeat.
His embrace was a bit too tight it hurt but Arabella did her best to bare with it.
