"I was powerless, Alwin.
I didn't have this mind-reading ability to know the truth everyone was hiding.
I didn't have memories of a past life that would tell me this and that, or something I could use as my basis for future actions.
I thought I had nothing.
That I had no power of my own.
And I thought my family had betrayed me.
Thus, I never asked for their help and resorted to plotting.
I thought I was all by myself.
And I didn't know what else to do so I simply maximized what I thought I could use back then," Arabella replied to Alwin's question.
That made Alwin silent since he actually understood that much.
"I regret cheating on Ferdinand.
And I don't plan on doing it now, so you don't have to worry about it.
And you were mistaken in believing I never loved Ferdinand.
I fell in love with him just a few days after the wedding.
And I soon forgot about Andrew and longed for Ferdinand.
I had sleepless nights thinking of how to make him a bit less cold to me.
