This side of Lu Yebai suddenly stirred unfounded fear in Lady Lu.
Her son, who had been excellent and calm from a young age, did not need her to worry about.
She feared him, but took even greater pride in him.
She had almost never seen Lu Yebai in such a state, and her heart ached as though it was breaking.
"Yebai, what's wrong with you? Why are you crying?" Lady Lu gently stroked her elder son's hair, her own eyes welling up with tears, "Don't cry, if you cry, mom will cry too…"
Lu Yebai had no idea why he was so upset at this moment. Extreme sadness and fear made him lose control and tears flowed uncontrollably, as if he was aiming to shed all the tears he had never shed from childhood to maturity.
He hazily felt that he had completely lost Meng Xi'er, and that kind of fear chilled him to the bone.
If there was once a time when he was carefree, when Meng Xi'er chose to follow Lu Qingchuan in death, he understood some things. In that moment of understanding, infinite chillness struck his heart.
—She truly no longer loved him.
Not even a bit.
She would rather die with Lu Qingchuan than stay with him.
Before his eyes again appeared the red, symbolic of life, fluid flowing from Meng Xi'er's body. She had not thought about him, or maybe since she hid that knife, she had never thought about him.
The feeling of complete loss chilled him to the bone, causing an uncontrollable fear.
So Meng Xi'er didn't love him anymore…
So this could hurt him so much.
Lu Yebai thought blankly, somewhere in his heart aching unbearably.
Feeling Lu Yebai's tears soaking her clothes, Lady Lu felt heartbroken. She was after all a mother, seeing her beloved child so upset softened her heart.
What a terrible thing must have happened to make a person like Lu Yebai cry with heartbreak.
Just thinking about this made Lady Lu worried for Lu Yebai.
"Yebai," Lady Lu lovingly stroked her child's hair, speaking softly, "What happened? Tell mom. Even if I can't help, talking about it might make you feel better."
"..."
Lu Yebai slowly extracted himself from the intense sadness. He raised his head, looking towards the direction of the operating room.
In this world, probably no one could help him.
How could he win back a person's heart?
He wanted Meng Xi'er to love him the way she used to.
Why though?
He didn't understand.
No one had ever told him, and there was no knowledge in the books that could tell him these things.
He thought himself invincible, there was nothing he could not get. But now, he realised that he actually couldn't hold onto anything.
Love and life.
When a person wanted to leave, it was truly without turning back.
He could keep her body, but not her heart.
"I'm fine."
Lu Yebai took a step back, shook his head at his mother, wiped his tears, and returned to being the composed Lu Yebai as usual. Standing there, as if nothing could faze him.
Lady Lu looked at her elder son, dubious and anxious. She wanted to ask him, are you really okay?
But she did not ask.
He didn't even tell her what had happened.
Lady Lu was inevitably saddened and felt she had failed her duties as a mother – her younger son had faced some mishap, and she didn't know what had happened to her elder son.