These matters, she was willing to not pursue!
She could treat that suffering as her life's greatest ordeal! It was a way to discipline her temperament, and it was also the necessary training for this lifetime!
Because, after all, those were the matters of her past life, but these events hadn't occurred at all in this life.
She didn't want to get hung up over the past, yet in the end, she still couldn't let go of this obsession.
For example, the matter with Fan Qiuhe, she couldn't let go of at all!
That's why the instant she saw him, she simply wasn't able to control her impulse to kill him on the spot!
Yes! She wanted to kill Fan Qiuhe! During that night banquet, she especially wanted to kill him!
She knew that her behavior at the time seemed particularly schizophrenic! She was indeed ill! Even she herself knew very well, that strictly speaking, this was most likely an illness of the mind.
