Darrien
He is looking at me.
He is assuring me that things are fine but I know him. Just the same way that he knows me, I know that there is something about what I have said so far that he doesn't like. He doesn't like that she exists. I don't even like that she exists but what can I do. I can't completely erase my past just to be the best for him.
It exists and I need him to see it all.
I need him to know it all.
"Okay.'' he manages. He is still holding my hand but now it feels like he is squeezing me tightly from all that he feels. I don't mind if he gets upset. That just means that he cares. I know that he cares. I know how much he loves me, so he doesn't need to hide how he feels to make me feel better.
