Jabi
Worries that all come back to me.
I have put so much pressure on Dar.
Made him feel like he had to live his life for me.
That is not how it should be.
We are in a relationship. This is a mutual thing but I have been selfish for so long. I don't want to blame him but he is the cause of it. All my life, I haven't had anyone care about me and only me. I haven't ever been the centre of attention but with Darrien, his world revolves around me and that has confused me.
Made me so selfish that I couldn't see that he was hurting.
Hurting because of all the pressure I put on him.
Once the mask is sorted, we planned to leave the community. It was something that I wanted.
Something that I pushed on him and now, he doesn't want to leave.
He wants this to be our home.
My home is where he is but I lost sight of that.
I was selfish.
