When Shangguan Shaoheng thought of the past, he felt guilty towards Xuan 'er.
He felt very guilty and reproached, but more than that, he felt heartache.
His heart ached for Xuan 'er at that time.
She loved him back then, but he didn't cherish her.
At that time, he did not seem to understand the exact feelings he had for Xuan 'er.
On that day, when he heard the news that she had died on the battlefield, he spat out a mouthful of blood. After the effects of the forget dust powder had worn off, he finally realized how deep his feelings for Xuan 'er were.
At that moment, he felt like he had gone crazy. He felt like his heart couldn't beat, and he couldn't breathe.
At that moment, he had wanted to follow Xuan 'er.
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Shui Xuan 'er could hear Shangguan Shaoheng's voice from outside the room. She curled up on the ground, tears streaming down her face.
She knew that she was making things difficult for herself, but she didn't know what to do.
